Play or Penance?
This may have been a tricky weekend for many. The Sun in
Virgo is urging us to focus in and get things done, while Neptune sitting opposite is blurring our attention and distracting us with fantasies and
dreams. Neptune activates our creative urges as well,
and if we can get those to meet in the middle with Virgo, something concrete and
beautiful can result.
The Moon (our emotions) is hanging out with
Mars (action) and Saturn (boundaries) in Scorpio (depth) and all of them together agree strongly with the
need to get to the work at hand.
Then again, with Jupiter in Leo (play), personal enjoyment could take precedence over work or details.
Which one was it for you?
The Moon in Scorpio (serious) square
Venus in Leo (me, me, me) has added inner stress and tension around our social and intimate
relationships. Venus in Leo's sense of entitlement 'wants what she wants' and
will accept no substitutions. Moon in Scorpio has no patience for this waste of energy. Our emotions can so easily become a battleground in this
push-pull dynamic between seriousness and play,
With our feelings (Moon) so powerfully polarized, a fear of losing control over them may result in
repressive behavior. For instance, it could seem easier to retreat from
anything or anyone that brings up a strong inner reaction, than face the core issues
these reactions point to.
Saturn in Scorpio can block our own feelings
as we do our best avoid situations that trigger or awaken these deeper
emotional responses. Ironically, Saturn
will at the same time, push us to take responsibility for the dramas we are
creating. Seems like we just can’t win!!!
So Moon Mars and Saturn are busy aggravating our dark hidden
stuff, Venus and Jupiter in Leo just want to have fun, and Neptune has us
ignoring everyone by distracting us with pure escapism.
It doesn’t want to feel the rejection, judgment or failure that
comes to us now via someone we respect or look up to (Saturn). Our pride (Leo)
does not like this. Yet through this whole pruning process, if we face down our
inner demons of shame, fear, guilt etc , we have a chance to reclaim all the
parts of ourselves we have rejected. Saturn
is a hard task-master but also gives us the strength and maturity to face
ourselves and persevere to the other side.
I watched a video on Netflix last night about a plant called
Ayawaska that is used in healing rituals in South America. This plant brings
people into deep trance where they come face to face with buried layers of
their psyche. Under the care and guidance of a shaman or healer, they each
grapple internally with hurt, fear etc that they had managed to avoid till
then. It also puts them in touch with something far greater than themselves. Through
a kind of ego death and surrender of control brought about by the power of the
plant medicine (not for everyone), many of them expressed a deepened connection
to universal love/oneness of all (Neptune) .
It was that opening that
seemed to allow them to let go of the false ego protection that hides so many
layers of hidden hurts and wounds. The depth their emotional expression was
truly touching… and was interestingly
(and synchronistically) in line with the energies we are surrounded by right now.
I have not experienced this particular process myself, though
I have had my own ego deaths via years of meditating. I am also familiar with12-step programs, where
they do a different kind of soul searching called a ‘moral inventory’. ("Made a searching and fearless moral
inventory of ourselves.")
This process is to
honestly and fearlessly list your own positive and negative traits and habits,
and then share them with a neutral person).
Whatever your method, the astrology of the moment is pushing
us to do this type of honest inner work. Neptune’s influence increases our
compassion as it both softens our ego and links us to the divine.
Though it is not an easy process, letting go can be truly liberating.
Once we have faced our limitations (as well as our strengths) and can still love and accept ourselves, we will be more able to forgive and allow for others
foibles as well.
‘To thine own self be true, and thou canst be false to any
person…’
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